Olives

Happy 9 weeks to me! Babies are olives this week. Two little olives. Huh. Kinda cool to think about. 
What I've learned about pregnancy so far:
- pregnancy "glow" should be referred to as pregnancy acne I feel like I'm a freaking 13 year-old!
- pregnancy makes my husband bow down to me (yes I have been using my new found power)
- pregnancy is like being hung over all the time and I can't even drink!
- pregnant people aren't suppose to have peanut. Whoops!
- while pregnant you will inevitably crave something you cannot have (i.e. cookie dough)
- pregnancy makes you a weeping fool
- while pregnant you will still cry during the commercial about the little kids in Africa you'll just cry harder and longer
- pregnancy can hit hard (i.e. I had about three more things that I've learned so far but thanks to pregnancy I've forgot them)


The babies are starting to look a little more like actual human beings rather than mutant alien tadpole things. They now have muscles, organs and nerves. Their sex organs are now there but won't be visible for a while. So boys? or girls? What are you little babies? I kind of hope you're girls to dress you up yet I hope you're boys because I wouldn't be able to raise one mini-me let alone two! 


The whole "pregnancy" thing is kind of hitting me and I kind of like it. The thought of having two little things growing inside me makes me feel important. Not totally cool with the thought of having twins yet but I'll get there I'm sure. Have I hit my motherly instinct? I think so! Gahh, I'm totally going to be one of those pregnant women that cry during and ultrasound or hearing the babies heartbeats. I swore I never would. Shit...

Here We Go

I woke up yesterday really nauseous but hungry. Weird. This morning I woke up the same way but ate and now I feel fine. Well, one second I feel fine then two minutes later I swear I'm going to vomit. Now is one of those moments when I could eat anything and everything in sight. But just wait two minutes and I'll be looking for a trash can. 


My husband has become more maternal (or paternal?) than I am! We went and purchased What To Expect When You're Expecting and he's almost done it. I haven't even started. We also want to get What To Expect When You're Expecting Twins, Triplets or Quads but we couldn't find it at Chapters so we'll have to order it online. I also want to get baby books for each of the babies so I can record things now because God knows we won't have any time to when they get here. 


Yep now's one of those moments where I want to puke my guts out. Fuck. I hope this doesn't last 7 more months. I don't think looking at the computer screen from 9 to 5 everyday at my job will help. Shit. When does maternity leave start?

P.S.

I don't know why that says it's posted at 5. It's 7:00 here

Early Morning Ramblings

I was just watching some YouTube videos of people given birth. Does the vagina really do that during birth?Elective c-section it is!
I'm just kidding. I want to do a vaginal birth but with some sort of pain management probably epidural. But then the thought of a huge ass needle going into my spine scares the shit out of me. Pretty much everything about pregnancy and babies scares the shit out of me.
I should probably do something productive today. Maybe clean the bathroom, vacuum, wash the floor. Meh fuck it, I'll probably sit on my ass until 5 tonight only getting up to eat.
That's another thing. My appetite has completely disappeared since about 7 weeks. I'm not nauseous at all but I really can't find anything that seems to appeal to me.
The weirdest things pop into my head at 7 in the morning...

I'm So Clueless

I have no clue when to start anything! Do I sign up for birthing classes now? Later? When? Do we start thinking of names now? When we find out the sexes? Do we pick the nursery when we find the sexes? Do we tell family and friends at the start of second trimester? Do we tell them earlier because there's two? When should I be gaining weight? I haven't gained any yet. Is that bad? Everyone says this so called "motherly instinct" thing will kick in. Where are you motherly instinct? Please come soon! I'm so clueless... 

One Day At A Time

I started this blog as sort of a diary to show my kids when they get older. I'm here to write down my thoughts before I forget them because well you know that pregnancy brain. I'll start from the beginning...
My husband and I have been married for four years and weren't exactly trying to get pregnant. I was on the pill and got a sinus infection. I was put on an antibiotic and my husband and I waited to .... well you know ... but I guess it wasn't long enough because now I am 8 weeks pregnant. I had an appointment on Monday with my OB and he did a vaginal ultrasound where he discovered twins. I'm so scared it's ridiculous. I'm scared of everything. Diapers, formula, breastfeeding, them being born early, if I'll stay healthy, bed rest possibility, mixing them up (since they are identical), if I'm gaining enough/too much weight, nurseries, preschool, public school, high school, college, weddings. It's all hitting me so fast I have no clue what's going to happen. I know I have 7 more months to think about everything but I still feel like I won't have enough time. One day at a time...